urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero Xplain..... the unexplainable.... paranoia_101 acosta 2006-11-02T11:37:44Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:40097 2006-11-02T11:37:44Z 2006-11-02T11:37:44Z and it hurts like hell...<br /><br />i can't eat!<br /><br />i can't sleep!<br /><br />i can't talk easily!!!!!!!!!<br /><br />pain, pain... GO AWAY!!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:39910 2006-10-08T13:13:15Z 2006-10-08T13:13:15Z BEYOND FORGETTING<br />by: Rolando Carbonell<br /><br />For a moment I thought I could forget you...<br />For a moment I thought <br />I could still the restlessness of my heart..<br />I thought the past could no longer haunt me<br /> nor hurt me....<br /> how wrong I was.<br /><br />For the past...no matter how distant...<br />Is as much a part of me as life itself.<br />And you are part of that life.<br />You are so much a part of me....<br /> my dreams...my early hopes...<br /> my youth and my ambitions...<br /> that in all my tasks...<br /> I can't help remembering you...<br /> many little delights and things remind<br /> me of you....<br /><br />Yes, I came and would my pride...<br /> mock my real feelings.<br />Would the love song...<br /> the sweet lovely smile on your face....<br /> be lost among the deepening shadows....<br /><br />I have wanted to be alone...<br />I thought I could make myself forget you...<br /> in silence and in a song....<br />And yet I remembered...<br />For who could forget the memory<br /> of the once lovely, the once beautiful...<br /> the once happy worlds such ours?<br /><br />I came because the song that I kept<br /> through the years is waiting to be sung.<br />I can't sing it with out you...<br />The song...when sung alone...<br /> will lose the essence of its time...<br /> because you and I had been one.<br /><br />I have wanted the misery to end...<br /> because it's a part of my restlessness.<br />CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND?<br /> can't you feel the depth and the tenderness<br /> of my feelings towards you?<br />Yes, can't you see how I suffer<br /> in this even darkness with out you?<br /><br />You went away because you mistook my silence<br /> for indifference.<br />But silence my dear, is the languege<br /> of my heart.<br />How could I essay the intensity of my love...<br /> when silence speaks a more eloquent love?<br />But perhaps...you did not understand.<br /><br />Remember I came...<br /> because the gnawing loneliness is there...<br /> and it will not be lost<br /> until the music is sung....<br /> until the poem is heard....<br /> until the silence is understood....<br /> until you come to me again.<br /><br />For you alone....<br /> can blend music and memory...<br /> into once consuming ecstacy....<br />YOU ALONE......................... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:39462 2006-10-03T11:58:39Z 2006-10-03T11:58:39Z <p align="center"><font size="3">goshysgosh...<br /><br /><font size="7">i suddenly....</font><br /><br /><font size="6">missin...</font><br /><br /><font size="1">those O'room moments with you...<br /></font><br /><font size="1">*hope u wont read this entry...*</font><br /><br /><font size="6">whatamithinking!!!!!!!!!!<br /></font><br /></font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:39252 2006-09-13T15:20:03Z 2006-09-13T15:20:03Z <p class="MsoNormal" style="MARGIN: 0in 0in 0pt" align="center"><font face="Times New Roman" color="#ff0000" size="4"><br /><br />“It has suddenly occurred to me that the real artist is measured by his ability to utilize misfortune in recreating the soul… for the first thing an artist must recreate, before true art can be realized, is his own soul…&nbsp;<br /><u>Before an artist can sweetly harrow the hearts of others, his own must have bled</u>.”- Francisco Icasiano<br /><br />*thank God, i'm whole again!*<br /><br /><br /><br /></font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:39077 2006-09-05T13:07:22Z 2006-09-05T13:07:22Z <p align="center"><br /><font color="#ff0000" size="2"><strong>you've always been there for me kahit alam kong nakakasawa at kasukasuka na ang bawat reklamo ko sa buhay dahil isang topic lang naman ang lumalabas sa bigbig ko sa tuwing binubuksan ko ang mga ito...<br /><br />maraming salamat sa iyo bes...<br />*promise, tutuparin ko na ang promise ko sa iyo na matagal mo ng wish para sa akin!*<br /><br />i would also&nbsp;like to thank the following people:<br /><br />to aieen!!- thank you my manyak-mate! kahit na sobrang layo mo sa akin, andyan ka pa rin!<br /><br />at last but not the least<br /><br />to pam- pam never fails to make me smile! maalala ko lang ang mga wattaface moments mo, nawawala na ang pagkabugnutin ko! thank you for the time na kahit midnight na nagttext ka pa rin to make sure that im ok...sorry kung mapangasar ako madalas pero lam mo naman na ganun lang talaga ako maglambing sayo! thank you for responding to my "rescue" and "SOS" times... thank you very much my tekla! <br />andito lang din ako for you...<br /></strong></font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:38849 2006-09-01T12:27:47Z 2006-09-01T12:27:47Z <p align="center"><font size="5"><font color="#ff0000">APRIL 2, 2005</font><br /></font><br /><strong><font color="#000000">wala lang, naalala ko lang...<br /><br />it was a very memorable day...<br /><br />kung alam mo lang kung gaano kamemorable para sa akin...<br /><br />naalala mo ba kung bkit???<br /></font></strong></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:38268 2006-08-30T23:45:46Z 2006-08-30T23:45:46Z <p align="center"><br /><br /><br /><strong><font size="4">"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness, or skill. It will make or break a company ... a church ... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude ... I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me, and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with you ... we are in charge of our Attitudes."</font></strong> </p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:37998 2006-08-30T12:49:55Z 2006-08-30T12:49:55Z <p align="center"><strong><font color="#ff0000" size="4">reading your xanga account for&nbsp;the nth&nbsp;time is like watching a silent comedy...</font>&nbsp;<br /><br /></strong><strong><font color="#000000"><u>*especially those&nbsp;entries&nbsp;about me...*<br /></u></font><br /><font color="#0000ff"><font size="1">NO COMMENT NALANG....</font><br /><br /><br /></font></strong></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:37701 2006-08-28T09:55:06Z 2006-08-28T09:55:06Z socio-anthro class<br />2:00-3:00<br />TOPIC: Social Groups<br /><br />Ms. Cequena: You know class... misunderstandings or conflicts in a group&nbsp;can be solve... just learn how to&nbsp;be&nbsp;open with what you really feel...<br /><br />gels: eh, mam... paano po kung kami na yung lumalapit pero ayaw pa niya makipagayos...<br /><br />Ms. Cequena: eh, wala na tayo magagawa dun... let us respect nalang her decision and wait whenever she's ready...<br /><br />JANE: eh, miss... paano naman po kung isang taon ka ng mahigit nag-intay tapos nung nagkita kayo wala naman din ngyari... bothered pa rin ako...<br /><br />Kim: Jane, mukang alam ko yun ah!!!<br /><br />Abi: Mukang alam ko rin yun a!!!!<br /><br />Ms. Cequena: ibig sabhin, wala na yun.... hindi na siya intresado or maybe ayaw na niya ungkatin pa... but you know what, isipin mo nalang kung sino ang loser in the end... sino ba ang nawalan? dba???<br />maybe, just maybe...soon she'll realize your worth... <br /><br />Jane: eh miss, mahigit na ngang isang taon ako tiniis eh, realize my worth pa kaya kung ganun katagal ako di pinansin....<br /><br />Daddy Long Legs: Ay.... manhid.... [grins]<br /><br />Ms. Cequena: Let's see... Malay mo lang dba?&nbsp; urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:37478 2006-08-25T11:31:25Z 2006-08-25T11:31:25Z <p align="center"><font color="#0000ff" size="5"><strong>once upon a time...<br /><br />there was this love of mine...<br /><br />who left for the states....................<br /><br />one lovely summer sunshine....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><u><font color="#ff0000" size="1">and nver cme back!!!!!.........................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</font><br /></u></strong><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><font size="4">well actually... bumalik naman siya... kaya lang hindi ko na siya nakilala coz this love of mine became a totally different person....<br /></font>and i mean totally different....<br /><br /><br /><br />*missin the way you used to be*<br /></font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:37215 2006-08-24T13:17:13Z 2006-08-24T13:17:13Z <font color="#ff0000"><strong><font size="7">ikaw ay parang isang math problem...<br /></font><br /><font size="1">you complicate my life...</font><br /></strong></font><br /><br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:36948 2006-08-23T13:33:03Z 2006-08-23T13:33:03Z <font color="#0000ff"><strong>may mga bagay-bagay sa mundo na ako lang ang nakakaalam....<br />sa tingin ko, d na important kung malalaman pa ng ibang tao ang totoong tumatakbo sa isip ko...<br />buti nalang natuto na ko...&nbsp;<br /><br />gsto mo malaman kung ano un....?<br /><br />lasingin mo muna ako.........<br /><br /><br /></strong></font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:36806 2006-08-20T08:33:52Z 2006-08-20T08:33:52Z <strong><font color="#ff0000">Nahanap mo na ba ang inaantay mo kaya mo ako&nbsp;nilapitan?<br /><br /></font><font color="#3366ff">Honestly, gusto ko talagang magtanong habang kasama kita nun... pero sa tingin ko... sa ibang pagkakataon na lang dahil kukulangin tayo sa oras sa dami ng questions at di ko naman gusto sirain ang gabi natin... at sa tingin ko hindi ka pa handa para dun... o baka naman wala ng balak sagutin lahat na yun...<u><br /><br />i really believe that you owe me lots and lots of explanation...</u>&nbsp;<br /> isa na dun ay kung bakit ngayon lang? bakit ngayon lang pagkatapos ng mahigit 1 taon....?<br /><br />wala na kong magagawa kung di mo ulit ako papansinin... its your decision...<br />tanggap ko even if you're like that...&nbsp;<br /><br />but you know what, i felt something that night...&nbsp;<br />no wonder action speaks louder than words...&nbsp;<br />bakit pa kasi kailangan itago....?<br />again, decision mo yan...<br />*sadyang binibitin ko ang mga statements ko para naman may thrill*<br /><br /><br /><br />Thank you din sa lahat.... sa lahat lahat.... Madami akong natutunan. Kung di dahil sa ngyari, malamang mahina pa rin ako ngayon.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /></font></strong> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:36469 2006-08-20T08:33:37Z 2006-08-20T08:33:37Z <strong><font color="#ff0000">Nahanap mo na ba ang inaantay mo kaya mo ako&nbsp;nilapitan?<br /><br /></font><font color="#3366ff">Honestly, gusto ko talagang magtanong habang kasama kita nun... pero sa tingin ko... sa ibang pagkakataon na lang dahil kukulangin tayo sa oras sa dami ng questions at di ko naman gusto sirain ang gabi natin... at sa tingin ko hindi ka pa handa para dun... o baka naman wala ng balak sagutin lahat na yun...<u><br /><br />i really believe that you owe me lots and lots of explanation...</u>&nbsp;<br /> isa na dun ay kung bakit ngayon lang? bakit ngayon lang pagkatapos ng mahigit 1 taon....?<br /><br />wala na kong magagawa kung di mo ulit ako papansinin... its your decision...<br />tanggap ko even if you're like that...&nbsp;<br /><br />but you know what, i felt something that night...&nbsp;<br />no wonder action speaks louder than words...&nbsp;<br />bakit pa kasi kailangan itago....?<br />again, decision mo yan...<br />*sadyang binibitin ko ang mga statements ko para naman may thrill*<br /><br /><br /><br />Thank you din sa lahat.... sa lahat lahat.... Madami akong natutunan. Kung di dahil sa ngyari, malamang mahina pa rin ako ngayon.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /></font></strong> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:36148 2006-06-15T12:54:51Z 2006-06-15T12:54:51Z dont say u love me <p><font size="4">kahit na mahigit ng isang taon tayong di naguusap, nagkikita, nagkikibuan, nagtitiisan....<br />kahit na malaki ang sama ng loob ko sa iyo...</font></p> <p><font size="4">kahit na binura mo na ko ng tuluyan sa mundo mo...<br /><br />inaamin ko.....................................................<br /><br /><br /></font><font size="1">namimiss na talaga kita.........</font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:35964 2006-06-11T16:31:13Z 2006-06-11T16:31:13Z drive myself crazy.... *baduy* <p align="center"><font color="#000000">"im confused....<br /><br /><br />but i have to be honest....<br /><br /><br />d ko pwede lokohin sarili ko.....<br /><br /><br />i dont know if this is right....<br /><br /><br />falling for someone who is a really good friend of mine!"<br /><br />GOD, I NEED HELP!</font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:35701 2006-06-02T04:26:03Z 2006-06-02T04:26:03Z <p align="center"><font color="#3366ff" size="1">this is not soooo good........................................ jane, stop it!!!!!&nbsp;<br /></font>_{^{<font color="#ff0000" size="5">friends are friends and will always be friends.........<br />LABO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</font>}}</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:35487 2006-05-31T02:22:50Z 2006-05-31T02:22:50Z <p align="center"><font color="#000000">My life is brilliant. <br />My love is pure. <br />I saw an angel. <br />Of that I'm sure. <br />She smiled at me on the subway. <br />She was with another man. <br />But I won't lose no sleep on that, <br />'Cause I've got a plan.&nbsp;<br /></font><br /><br /><font color="#ff0000">You're beautiful. You're beautiful. <br />You're beautiful, it's true. <br />I saw you face in a crowded place, <br />And I don't know what to do, <br />'Cause I'll never be with you. <br />You're beautiful. You're beautiful. <br />You're beautiful, it's true. <br />There must be an angel with a smile on her face, <br />When she thought up that I should be with you. <br /><strong>But it's time to face the truth, <br />I will never be with you. <br /></strong><br /></font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:35073 2006-05-29T10:15:15Z 2006-05-29T10:15:15Z my head aches.... terribly...<br /><br />stuffy nose...<br /><br />watery eyes...<br /><br />sore throat...<br /><br />wheezing lungs...<br /><br />muscle pain...<br /><br />dont-want-to-eat-coz-im-not-in-the-mood syndrome...<br /><br />constantly daydreaming...<br /><br />so tired........................................................................<br /><br />lonely...<br /><br />waiting...<br /><br />whatever... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:35029 2006-03-21T13:40:08Z 2006-03-21T13:42:56Z pagkatapos ng isang taong paghihintay...<br />pagkatapos ng isang taong pagiisip...<br />pagkatapos ng isang taong pagiyak...<br /><br /><strong>ITO LANG PALA MAPAPALA KO!!!!</strong><br /><br />pero kahit anong sabihin mo, d ako maniniwala... kailangan mong ipamuka muna sa akin before i believe you!!!!<br /><br />wala na kong pakealam...<br /><font size="5"><br /></font> <div align="center"><font size="5" color="#ff0000">kung ayaw mo e di wag mo!<br /><br />kahit kailan di dadating yang iniintay mo...<br /><br />&nbsp;kahit kailan, di ako magiging tao na gusto mo... <br />at kung di mo kayang tanggapin ang buong pagkatao ko,<br />problema mo na yuN!!!!!!!!</font></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:34775 2006-02-09T11:28:24Z 2006-02-09T11:28:24Z after a year, ngayon ko lang lubusan naintindihan kung bakit nagkandaleche-leche ang nangyari sa atin... <br /><br />now, i understand why...<br /><br />and it's so sad na wala man lang ako nagawa about "IT!"<br /><br />so much for insensitivity in life...<br /><br /> "being insensitive is like a disease"- J.E.P.A urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:34434 2006-02-04T15:05:39Z 2006-02-04T15:05:39Z <p><font color="#3333ff">im freakin... totallly... and absolutely... </font><font color="#ff0000" size="7"><strong>FURIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</strong></font></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:34049 2006-02-04T14:54:58Z 2006-02-04T14:57:40Z <p><font color="#3366ff">ang sama ng pakiramdam pag may dinadala kang sama ng loob noh??</font></p> <p><font color="#ff0000" size="6">ANG PANGET NG PAKIRAMDAM!</font></p> <p><font size="4">kapag lalong tumatagal, lalong lumalala...</font></p> <p><font size="4">Thank God, there's LJ! Nabubuhos ko lahat ng sama ng loob ko sa pagsusulat ng entries... at least, somehow, nababawasan... pero konti lang... </font></p> <p><font size="4">ok... gusto ninyo bang magkaroon ng idea kung gaano kasama ang loob ko... ok, here it goes.......</font></p> <p><font color="#ff6666" size="5"><strong>&amp;%^&amp;^%&amp;^$%^$&amp;^$&amp;^%$%^$&amp;^%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</strong></font></p> <p><a href="mailto:$^*@&amp;#&amp;@(&amp;()&amp;*%(*#&amp;$(#*)%*#)%"><font color="#ff6666" size="5"><strong>$^*@&amp;#&amp;@(&amp;()&amp;*%(*#&amp;$(#*)%*#)%</strong></font></a><font color="#ff6666" size="5"><strong>*!!!!!!!!!!!<br><br></strong></font><a href="mailto:*#@*$*$*#$&amp;&amp;$"><font color="#ff6666" size="5"><strong>*#@*$*$*#$&amp;&amp;$</strong></font></a><font color="#ff6666" size="5"><strong>(*@#(@#(&amp;@&amp;#*@&amp;#!)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</strong></font></p> <p><font color="#ff6666" size="5"><strong>@)(**(@#)(#*)@#*#()*@#)*$&amp;#$*^&amp;^!!!!!!!!</strong></font></p> <p><strong><font color="#ff6666" size="5">*@&amp;#&amp;@^#&amp;@#^^!&amp;@!*@)#@*##*(!!!!!!!</font></strong></p> <p><strong><font size="5"><a href="mailto:&amp;@^#^#&amp;#^*!@!(@*!@)#()(@)($"><font color="#ff6666">&amp;@^#^#&amp;#^*!@!(@*!@)#()(@)($</font></a><font color="#ff6666">)@*#@(#*(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!</font></font></strong></p> <p><strong><font color="#ff6666" size="5">well, basically, that's it...</font></strong></p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p><strong><font color="#ff6600" size="5"></font></strong>&nbsp;</p> <p><font size="4"></font>&nbsp;</p> <p><font size="4"></font>&nbsp;</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:34014 2006-02-02T16:01:50Z 2006-02-02T16:01:50Z sabi nila... feb daw is the month of love and blah blah blah... eh bakit hindi ko maramdaman??? <br /><br />sa sobrang dami ng ka ek-ekan sa buhay eh hindi ko na alam kung ano ang paniniwalaan... wala naman akong ginawang masama at malinis ang conscience ko... inaamin kong nasaktan ako... at least nakaramdam ako ng sakit dahil sabi nila kapag hindi ka raw nasaktan kapag nagmahal ka... paniguradong di pagmamahal yun... it's more of a necessity rather than love... <br /><br />tanging ako at ako lang ang nakakaalam kung masaya ba ako ngayon o hindi pagkalipas ng isang taong punong puno ng sama ng loob... kasi... ayoko sabihin... la lang... trip lang maging misteryoso... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:elmo_my_hero:33719 2006-01-31T11:16:06Z 2006-01-31T11:22:28Z ang hirap magpalaki ng magulang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br />i can't believe that my own parents are hindering me from learning new things... <br /><br />parati nalang, "Hindi!"... "Magastos yan!" ... "Dito ka nalang sa bahay!"... "Ano nanaman ba yan?"<br /><br />i mean... they are actually "boxing" me up... <br /><br />Magpaalam ka ng maayos, di ka papayagan! DAMN IT! im 19 years old! ang tingin pa siguro nila sa akin ay isang KINDER!<br />it seems na they're somewhat advicing you to do something pero hindi eh, it is more on the discouraging level!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br /><br />wala naman akong nakikitang mali sa gagawin ko eh!!!